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Monday, August 20, 2012

HIV TREATMENT HUBS in the PHILIPPINES

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TREATMENT HUB is a hospital facility with an established HIV/AIDS Core team (HACT) providing prevention, treatment care and support services to People Living with HIV (PLHIV) including but not limited to HIV counseling and testing, clinical management, patient monitoring and other care and support services. ARV treatment can only be accessed through these facilities. 

There are 19 TREATMENT HUBS in the Philippines.


List of HIV TREATMENT HUBS in the PHILIPPINES


LUZON AREA

>>CORDILLERA ADMINISTRATIVE REGION (CAR)<<
Baguio General Hospital and Medical Center (BGHMC) 
Address: Gov. Pack Rd., Baguio City
Landline Number: (074) 442-4216 local 381; 442-2012; 442-3165
Cellphone Number: +639155816480

>>ILOCOS REGION (REGION I)<<
Ilocos Training and Regional Medical Center (ITRMC)
Address: San Fernando City, La Union
Landline Number: (072) 607-6413 local 124; 242-1143; 700-3808 loc. 122

>>CAGAYAN VALLEY (REGION II)<<
Cagayan Valley Medical Center
Address: Carig ,Tuguegarao, Cagayan
Landline Number: (078) 304-1410; 846-7240; 844-3789
Cellphone Number: +639209830825 / +639175781490

>>CENTRAL LUZON (REGION III)<<
Jose B. Lingad Memorial   Medical Center     
Address: Brgy. San Dolores, San Fernando, Pampanga
Landline Number: (045) 961-3989 (Medical Dept); 961-3921; 961-3380

James L. Gordon Memorial Hospital
Address: New Asina, Olongapo City
Landline Number: (047) 222-4120

>>NATIONAL CAPITAL REGION (NCR)<<
San Lazaro Hospital
Address: Quiricada St., Sta. Cruz, Manila
Landline Number: (02) 732-3125; 723-3776 to 79; 732-3106 local 218 (H4-OPD) 212 (H4 Ward) 743-8301; 309-9528/29 loc. 6000

Philippine  General Hospital
Address: Taft,Avenue, Ermita, Manila
Landline Number: (02) 554-8400 local 3249; 567-3394;  526-1705
Cellphone Number: +639205031104

Research Institute for Tropical Medicine (RITM) 
Address: Filinvest Corporate City, Alabang, Muntinlupa City
Landline Number: (02) 807-2628 local 332; 526-1705; 807-2628/38 loc. 801/208

Makati Medical Center (MMC)
Address: No. 2 Amorsolo Street, Legaspi Village, Makati City, 1229
Landline Number: (632) 888-8999 local 2336

The Medical City 
The Medical City I-REACT (I Am Responsible thru Early Assessment, Consultation and Treatment)
Address: Ortigas Avenue, Pasig City, Metro Manila
Landline Number:  (632) 635-6789 local 6323 (Infection Control Office); 988-1000, (632) 988-7000 extension 6765 and 6323.

National Capital Region has 5 Treatment Hubs
3 Government (San Lazaro, RITM and PGH)
2 Private Hospitals (Makati Medical Center and The Medical City)

>>BICOL REGION (REGION V)<<
Bicol Regional Training   and Teaching Hospital (BRTTH)    
Address: Rizal St.,Legaspi City, Albay
Landline Number: (052) 483-0015 /16/17; 483-0086


VISAYAS AREA

>>WESTERN VISAYAS (REGION VI)<<
Western Visayas Medical Center (WVMC)       
Address: Q. Abeto St.,Mandurriao, 5000 Iloilo City
Landline Number: (033) 321-0552; 321-2841 to 50

Corazon Locsin Montelibano Memorial Regional Hospital (CLMMRH) 
Address: Dept. of Internal Medicine, 3rd Flr., OPD Bldg. CLMMRH, Lacson St., Bacolod City, Negros Occidental
Landline Number: (034) 709-0244; 435-1591 loc. 226; 433-2697
Cellphone Number: +639222903710 / +639228608756

>>CENTRAL VISAYAS (REGION VII)<<
Vicente Sotto, Sr. Memorial Medical Center (VSSMC)
Address: B. Rodriguez St., Sambag II, Cebu City 6000
Landline Number: (032) 253-9891 to 96; 253-7564; 253-7564/ 9882

Governor Celestino Gallares Memorial Hospital, (formerly Bohol Provincial Hospital)
Address: Miguel Parras Street, Tagbilaran City, Bohol
Landline Number: (038) 411-4868; 411-4869; 411-3185

<<EASTERN VISAYAS (REGION VIII)<<
Eastern Visayas Regional Medical Center
Address: Magsaysay Boulevard, Tacloban City, Leyte
Landline Number: (053) 321 3129; 523 2800 (Medical ward)


MINDANAO AREA

>>ZAMBOANGA PENINSULA (REGION IX)<<
Zamboanga City Medical Center (ZCMC)
Address: Ligaya Center for Healing, Zamboanga City, Medical Center, Sta. Catalina, Zamboanga City
Landline Number: (062) 991-2934; 991-0573

>>NORTHERN MINDANAO (REGION X)<<
Southern Philippines Medical Center (Davao Medical Center (DMC)
Address: J.P. Laurel St., Bajada, 8000 Davao City
Landline Number: (081) 227-2731 local 4205

>>DAVAO REGION (REGION XI)<<
Northern Mindanao Medical Center
Address: Capitol Cmpd., Cagayan de Oro City
Landline Number: (088 or 08822) 728829  726362


JaKe Positive. BE SAFE! +)

Sunday, August 19, 2012

5 STAGES OF GRIEF: ACCEPTANCE PART 5 of 5

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ACCEPTANCE

Acceptance is often confused with the notion of being “all right” or “OK” with what has happened. This is not the case. Most people don’t ever feel OK or all right about the loss of a loved one. This stage is about accepting the reality that our loved one is physically gone and recognizing that this new reality is the permanent reality. We will never like this reality or make it OK, but eventually we accept it. We learn to live with it. It is the new norm with which we must learn to live. We must try to live now in a world where our loved one is missing. In resisting this new norm, at first many people want to maintain life as it was before a loved one died. In time, through bits and pieces of acceptance, however, we see that we cannot maintain the past intact. It has been forever changed and we must readjust. We must learn to reorganize roles, re-assign them to others or take them on ourselves.
Finding acceptance may be just having more good days than bad ones. As we begin to live again and enjoy our life, we often feel that in doing so, we are betraying our loved one. We can never replace what has been lost, but we can make new connections, new meaningful relationships, new inter-dependencies. Instead of denying our feelings, we listen to our needs; we move, we change, we grow, we evolve. We may start to reach out to others and become involved in their lives. We invest in our friendships and in our relationship with ourselves. We begin to live again, but we cannot do so until we have given grief its time.

MY THOUGHTS: Acceptance is not that easy. It's a process and therefore you need to experience situations that would really put you to the test. But once you take hold of it, everything seems more meaningful.

GOD has given me another chance and not anyone has this opportunity. That's why I shall make this second life more meaningful and be of service to the people who need help.

Life is too short to dwell with revenge, sadness, and guilt. If we dwell on this we won't be a better person.
I decided to embrace my condition. It might bot be a condition where I cannot be proud of but at least I can say that this condition taught me a lot of lessons in life and it made me STRONGER and a BETTER MAN.
Acceptance relieved me from the shackles of torturous pain.
I feel better now and I gained confidence.

My advocacy aims to help people who are newly diagnosed, I've been there and so I don't want them too feel so alone in this world. They need all the love and support, and so I'm here for them. I also advocate for early detection since it would really help a lot if you were able to know about your HIV status at an earlier stage, with the help of the doctor and medical team, it would be possible that you could live a normal life. Also everyone has the right to know the FACTS and the TRUTH about HIV and I believe we should be given RESPECT and be given the life that we want away from STIGMA and DISCRIMINATION.

I am very much thankful for all the people who accepted me as to who I really am. For my parents who showed their support and love. For my best friend who was always there for me and always listened to what I was sharing to him. To my Fellow PLHIV's who gave their support and helped me out to be in this ADVOCACY. And other significant others who made my life more meaningful and full of love. I OWE IT ALL TO YOU!





At times, people in grief will often report more stages. Just remember your grief is unique as you are.





JaKe Positive. BE SAFE! +)


SOURCE: http://grief.com/the-five-stages-of-grief/ 

Thursday, August 16, 2012

5 STAGES OF GRIEF: DEPRESSION PART 4 of 5

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DEPRESSION

After bargaining, our attention moves squarely into the present. Empty feelings present themselves, and grief enters our lives on a deeper level, deeper than we ever imagined. This depressive stage feels as though it will last forever. It’s important to understand that this depression is not a sign of mental illness. It is the appropriate response to a great loss. We withdraw from life, left in a fog of intense sadness, wondering, perhaps, if there is any point in going on alone? Why go on at all? Depression after a loss is too often seen as unnatural: a state to be fixed, something to snap out of. The first question to ask yourself is whether or not the situation you’re in is actually depressing. The loss of a loved one is a very depressing situation, and depression is a normal and appropriate response. To not experience depression after a loved one dies would be unusual. When a loss fully settles in your soul, the realization that your loved one didn’t get better this time and is not coming back is understandably depressing. If grief is a process of healing, then depression is one of the many necessary steps along the way.

MY THOUGHTS: I had my depression since day 1 of my diagnosis but as the day pass by it gets deeper and deeper and deeper, I was letting myself to sink to the quicksand of depression. I start to lack the enthusiasm to work. I was able to do horrible mistakes with work like swapping orders and charge it with another persons credit card. During our 1hour lunch I slept 2hrs just to catch up with my sleeping hours that I lack. It was a nightmare and I was very unproductive. I wasn't suicidal though and I never had ideations in taking my life.  I was feeling worthless, disgust, helpless, uncomfortable . The only person that I was able to talk talk about what I am undergoing is my best friend. He was with me all the way, from day 1 until now. He knows what I feel and tries hard to cheer me up, but I fake it out. I tell him that I am ok but still I was in the quicksand of depression. He never gave up on me and so I held my HOPES on to that.
I recovered quickly from depression, my best friend threw a ROPE OF HOPE to me and I reached for it and climbed up. I was rescued from the quicksand of depression.
I owe it to my best friend and also my family and relatives which eventually showed their support to me and assured me that everything is going to be alright. 
Even today I still do have some dull moments from time to time but, I just become OPTIMISTIC, I never loose HOPE, I always look forward for a brighter future. And it overpowered my depression. 




 JaKe Positive. BE SAFE! +)


SOURCE: http://grief.com/the-five-stages-of-grief/ 


5 STAGES OF GRIEF: BARGAINING PART 3 of 5

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BARGAINING

Before a loss, it seems like you will do anything if only your loved one would be spared. “Please God, ” you bargain, “I will never be angry at my partner again if you’ll just let him live.” After a loss, bargaining may take the form of a temporary truce. “What if I devote the rest of my life to helping others. Then can I wake up and realize this has all been a bad dream?”
We become lost in a maze of “If only…” or “What if…” statements. We want life returned to what is was; we want our loved one restored. We want to go back in time: find the tumor sooner, recognize the illness more quickly, stop the accident from happening…if only, if only, if only. Guilt is often bargaining’s companion. The “if onlys” cause us to find fault in ourselves and what we “think” we could have done differently. We may even bargain with the pain. We will do anything not to feel the pain of this loss. We remain in the past, trying to negotiate our way out of the hurt. People often think of the stages as lasting weeks or months. They forget that the stages are responses to feelings that can last for minutes or hours as we flip in and out of one and then another. We do not enter and leave each individual stage in a linear fashion. We may feel one, then another and back again to the first one.

MY THOUGHTS:  Bargaining has been what I was doing a couple of weeks after my diagnosis. I was constantly praying the rosary and asking spiritual guidance and I was asking GOD to wake me up of this bad dream that I was into. I was visiting the adoration chapel almost everyday talking to him and asking him for forgiveness and begging him to reverse what has been done. But as days pass by I don't get any answer. I was desperate and really persistent in bargaining. Nothing, nothing really happened at all.
I was also having realizations like "What if I did it safely with everybody? would I still have the same scenario?" What if I just controlled myself with my urge? will I be able to avoid this incident?" "If only I was more careful with the person's I meet up and have sex with." " If only I stayed just at work and at home and don't do other sexual activities to fulfill my fantasies and feed my urge." It went on and on and on and on . . .  It was pure torture.... Everytime I wake up I would grab my bag and pull out my HIV test result hoping that I just misunderstood it, that it was NON-REACTIVE .... I was finding reasons and ways that would help me forget those painful memories. EVENTUALLY I GAVE UP  WITH BARGAINING.... Had a realization that I have to face this and do something with it.




JaKe Positive. BE SAFE! +)


SOURCE: http://grief.com/the-five-stages-of-grief/ 

 

5 STAGES OF GRIEF: ANGER PART 2 of 5

 

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 ANGER

Anger is a necessary stage of the healing process. Be willing to feel your anger, even though it may seem endless. The more you truly feel it, the more it will begin to dissipate and the more you will heal. There are many other emotions under the anger and you will get to them in time, but anger is the emotion we are most used to managing. The truth is that anger has no limits. It can extend not only to your friends, the doctors, your family, yourself and your loved one who died, but also to God. You may ask, “Where is God in this?
Underneath anger is pain, your pain. It is natural to feel deserted and abandoned, but we live in a society that fears anger. Anger is strength and it can be an anchor, giving temporary structure to the nothingness of loss. At first grief feels like being lost at sea: no connection to anything. Then you get angry at someone, maybe a person who didn’t attend the funeral, maybe a person who isn’t around, maybe a person who is different now that your loved one has died. Suddenly you have a structure – - your anger toward them. The anger becomes a bridge over the open sea, a connection from you to them. It is something to hold onto; and a connection made from the strength of anger feels better than nothing.We usually know more about suppressing anger than feeling it. The anger is just another indication of the intensity of your love.

MY THOUGHTS:  Anger was not able to take over me. I was able to control it. Others felt extreme anger that they begin to continue their habit of unprotected sex for the sole purpose of infecting other. I was not like that. I didn't even blame GOD for leading my life into this. I was a very patient person and a forgiving one. But there were instances that I was not able to feel extreme anger but I vent it out by crying. 
When both of my uncles knew my HIV status they seemed to be very hesitant to let me stay in their house. So when I had my STI treated they bought be a ticket for me to have a one week stay at our province and also to unwind and be able to be with my family. After that week when I got back to Manila they already arranged an apartment for me to stay while I was recovering  and I was all alone there. Dad used to sleep with me though during weekends because he is also working in Manila. But those 5 long weekdays, I was left there alone and I almost cried all day and also I can't sleep so I have to take my antihistamines fr the purpose of me to get drowsy and eventually fall to sleep. I did that for a week or two.
I was angry with my relatives because they dumped me just like that. They did some alibi's like "we have visitors coming so the house would be full". I didn't complain, they didn't hear anything from me. But deep inside I was hurting, HURTING LIKE HELL! I was like an outcast. I will never forget those sad days when I cry almost every night on the veranda and just stay there for hours, alone. 
But I forgive them. I know that it wasn't their fault and they weren't educated with my condition. 



JaKe Positive. BE SAFE! +)

SOURCE: http://grief.com/the-five-stages-of-grief/

5 STAGES OF GRIEF: DENIAL PART 1 of 5

 
The stages have evolved since their introduction and they have been very misunderstood over the past three decades. They were never meant to help tuck messy emotions into neat packages. They are responses to loss that many people have, but there is not a typical response to loss as there is no typical loss. Our grief is as individual as our lives.
The five stages, denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance are a part of the framework that makes up our learning to live with the one we lost. They are tools to help us frame and identify what we may be feeling. But they are not stops on some linear timeline in grief. Not everyone goes through all of them or in a prescribed order. Our hope is that with these stages comes the knowledge of grief ’s terrain, making us better equipped to cope with life and loss.


                       
DENIAL
  This first stage of grieving helps us to survive the loss. In this stage, the world becomes meaningless and overwhelming. Life makes no sense. We are in a state of shock and denial. We go numb. We wonder how we can go on, if we can go on, why we should go on. We try to find a way to simply get through each day. Denial and shock help us to cope and make survival possible. Denial helps us to pace our feelings of grief. There is a grace in denial. It is nature’s way of letting in only as much as we can handle.
As you accept the reality of the loss and start to ask yourself questions, you are unknowingly beginning the healing process. You are becoming stronger, and the denial is beginning to fade. But as you proceed, all the feelings you were denying begin to surface.

MY THOUGHTS: I can still remember the day when the Medical Technologist sent me an SMS saying that I can pick up my HIV result. Hearing her say that made me nervous but I was still calm and composed. So I fixed myself and decided to go and pick-up my test result. 
I arrived in the place and she greeted me with a smile. A smile that gives me assurance that everything is gonna be ok. She asked me something before she handed me the result, sealed in an envelope. "What would your reaction be if it turns out positive?", she asked. "I seriously don't know." I answered. She discussed several things before she handed me the envelope. I took hold of it and opened it .... It says REACTIVE for HIV. I looked at her and handed the result back to her. She explained the test result further. I tried to listen but I wasn't. I was just looking at her and nodding and hardly understood what she was saying. She asked me what I am feeling. I replied, I don't know what I'm supposed to do. She tapped me on my back and said, it's not too late for you. She informed me of support groups and also stressed out my need to see an Infectious Disease Doctor for my Health Evaluation. I told her i'll do it and said my goodbye.
On my way out of the hospital I called my best friend. He was anxiously waiting for my result and once he answered my call he asked me right away if what was the result. I said, Yes It is POSITIVE, I am HIV+. Upon hearing that he bursted into tears and I suddenly tears start to fall on my face. Hearing him cry made me so emotional. I was walking along PGH around 2pm and I was crying but I try to just bend my head to conceal what i am undergoing to the people around me. Took the MRT going home, just standing and just looking far away, and I was talking to myself that thing couldn't happen, this is not possible. Tears start to fall again but I tried to stop it and just plugged in my earphones to listen to some lively music. It did help a little, I was relieved but still random thought's about what's going to happen still runs in my head. As I entered the my uncles house, i went straight to my room and just laid down. I didn't notice the time but I was awake but my mind is stuck somewhere else. I wasn't able to sleep that night and went straight to work. My shift was 12mn to 8am. IT WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE.





JaKe Positive. BE SAFE! +)

SOURCE: http://grief.com/the-five-stages-of-grief/

Friday, August 3, 2012

Reproductive Health Bill



I am a Christian and my parents raised me to become a follower of GOD. However this RH Bill Controversy is really giving me the nerves. I don't have anything against my church but as a citizen of this country, each and everyone of us has the right to be a responsible citizen and a responsible parent to our children. If we are given options and also the right information towards FAMILY PLANNING, there won't be increased rates of maternal deaths, there won't be increased rates of fetuses dumped in the toilet bowl, families will be given the chance to plan their spacing for their children and the spread of HIV and other Sexually Transmitted Infections will be lessened.

If this Bill is passed, every Filipino will benefit from it and it would really help a lot.

With EDUCATION as the number one priority and the cheapest mode of ADVOCACY for HIV and AIDS we will be able to penetrate through the tight institutions that hinders SEX EDUCATION as a Privilege Right of every Filipino Youth. I have seen the format of the said topic and I don't see anything alarming about it that would pollute the curiosity of the youth. But what I see is a very effective and an empowering strategy to give the youth the knowledge and also provide them the right information that would someday help them to become responsible citizens and a responsible parent to their children.

The Filipino family is a very conservative family and I believe that education starts at home and when the parents send their children to school they expect that they want the best for their children and the school being the second home and the teachers being the second parents they are expected to give the right information to their students an also empower them to become responsible citizens in the future.

The CHURCH should start to reflect on what should be prioritized, RISK REDUCTION or AVOIDANCE.

RISK REDUCTION means doing something or putting up a program to prevent something and also to improve the well being of a person.

RISK AVOIDANCE is doing nothing. Just plain avoidance would lead to ignorance and would result to bigger problems.




I AM A FILIPINO, I AM A CHRISTIAN, I AM PRO-RH.








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